I'm... expecting...

Sooo... I realized I wrote a bunch of miscellaneous stuff on here that I didn't publish. Most of it I deleted, but some of it I published. Anyways, I'm going to try not to make that  mistake again! HA HA!

A VERY common trend I've noticed with, I'd say, about 85-90% of my friends is that they're all settling down, getting married, having children, buying houses/car's.. etc. and I'm not going to lie I feel a little left out. With me turning 26, I made a decision that I'm going to do something important with my life this year so I started thinking about my options.

I don't know if I'm old enough to be making such big decisions about my life but, not having children is something I've 99% decided I will never do. For several reasons. I may be almost 26, but I don't feel over 15. I have an inability to plan ahead (which makes me a terrible money-saver), I still depend on my parents, and I tend to make quick rash irresponsible decisions at the last minute. All of which are characteristics I need to grow out of before I ever/if ever, decide to start a family.

Regardless, I feel like I'm missing the thrill of the child-bearing experience. The attention, the mindless chatter with strangers about baby talk, the life change, as well as the intangible encouragement to get your life together. The very idea that there's going to be someone else that will depend on you for the next 18 years (in my case 26 years) is pretty intense. I think people take parenthood for granted sometimes, especially in this day and age, and I'm not going to be one of those 'mothers'.

With that being said.. I've made a decision..

With my financial life slowing coming together,  and my social life becoming less impromptu and more 'sophisticated' and 'under control' I feel like if I gave myself a bit more time I too, could be expecting an addition to the family.

HAHA! Before anyone gets crazy, everyone who knows me longer than 6 minutes knows how much I hate children, and I have yet to justify it, I just do. I've actually pinpointed that rooms full of children drive my anxiety up the wall more than I even realized at first. ALSO, anyone who knows me longer than 2 minutes knows that Bean's is my whole world, and well.. my animals are my children.

Weeelllllllll I'll cut to the chase, I'm THINKING about buying a puppy. I'm giving myself 9 or so months, to baby-proof my house, my finances, and my life in general, to prepare for my new addition. Personally, having a puppy is a much larger responsibility than having a child. I've had animals all my life, and I understand the responsibility, that's why I'm giving myself 9 months to make a decision.. (if not longer!)

The idea of treating it like, '9 months until the baby comes', to some, might be the cries of a lonely woman, but it makes the wait time more exciting! I have a lot of things I want to do, things I need to learn, and things I need to deal with until the addition comes, and it makes it so real. I also work better under pressure so I think it'll be a good motivator for me.

I've found a city I love, full of people I love, and a job I enjoy. I still have a lot of thinking to do, and who knows, in a month or two I could be totally changing my mind about all this, but that's why I'm giving myself 9 months :o) (it's a little more forgiving than a real pregnancy but it's still exciting to me).

Call me crazy.... cause that's what I am...

Stay fabulous.
- Jenna.